3-Minute Theory: You Were Never Meant to Stare at Walls

Floki spent over 20 years not feeling much.

Not because he was broken. Because he had built, layer by layer, a concrete block around his heart.

He hurt people he loved. He couldn't stop. The patterns ran deeper than his awareness of them.

Then came a mushroom trip that wasn't pretty. Hours of seeing death, destruction, war. And underneath it all, a single recognition: this is the pain I inflicted on others.

That was the crack. Not the cure, just the opening.

Three years later, he pulled his blinds open one spring morning and nearly cried at the green of the trees. A feeling he'd never had before. One he couldn't have had before.

MIND – Think

“The intensity of feelings I can have correlates directly with my quality of life.”

Most people think feeling less is a form of strength. Staying calm, not reacting, keeping it together.

Floki flips that completely.

The more he healed, the bigger everything got. The highs got higher. The lows got lower. And he sees both as proof that he's alive.

He makes a sharp point about authenticity, too. What we call authentic is often just programming we haven't examined.

The ultra-marathoner who says running is his true self. The high achiever is chasing the next target. It can all be running from something that hasn't been felt yet.

Real authenticity isn't a personality. It's what's left when you stop performing.

BODY – Do

“Just start foraging wild herbs. You have to get outside, you have to look at green leaves, and you get nutrition you cannot buy anywhere.”

Floki's entry point into reconnection is almost embarrassingly simple.

Go outside. Look at plants. Touch the ground.

Try this

• Take one walk this week with a single intention: identify one wild plant you've never noticed before.

• Download a plant ID app. Find something growing nearby. Look it up.

That's it. You're not foraging yet. You're just training your eyes to see what was always there.

Do it once a week, and by the end of the season, ten plants will be stuck in your memory for life.

The point isn't to go live in a forest. It's to stop treating nature as a destination and start treating it as a daily practice.

Five minutes of actual soil under your feet does something that no screen can replicate.

Your nervous system knows the difference. Studies on hospital patients show that those with window views of trees heal faster. Science is catching up to what the body already knew.

HEART – Feel

“For me, it's just really being honest to yourself and having the desire to really dig deep, because it's so easy to lie to yourself.”

Floki didn't realise he was a narcissist because he was cruel. He realised because he was honest.

He watched himself hurt the people he loved and couldn't stop. That gap, between knowing and stopping, nearly broke him.

What brought him through wasn't a system or a protocol. It was a mushroom trip in the dark, a garden that needed tending, and a willingness to keep looking even when what he found was uncomfortable.

He still finds fragments of it now. In the way he kept score with his cat. In small moments of power-seeking he almost missed.

That's not failure. That's what honest healing actually looks like.

Not a single breakthrough. A slow, ongoing return to yourself.

One feeling at a time.

A Piece of Us

Rupert: “I’ve had to face a few setbacks lately. At times it feels like I’ve taken steps backwards. DOS MAS closing and having to find a job again was humbling in a way I didn’t expect.

I’ve had to swallow my pride and my ego, and realise there’s more to me than any one situation or identity.

Now the real question is whether I actually trust myself. Am I still operating from old habits and a scarcity mindset, or am I moving toward something more grounded and expansive?

Can I let go of who I was, step into the unknown, and become something better not just in theory, but in how I actually live?

Life isn’t about a to do list just to tick it off and say I’ve done it so I can feel productive but actually is my intention coming from a safe place a space where I fully feel my self.

I’ll ponder that.”

Konrad: “Last week was manic. I'm off to Vipassana today, from today to Sunday.

No phones, books, music or conversations, just me and my own thoughts for 3 days and 11 hours of meditation. Looking forward to that.

In the last week we had Dana Kippel, Danny Goler and Dennis McKenna on our pod. Lots of research, posting and collaborations going on behind the scenes, which is great, but that pushes me to the next level. It's hard but enjoyable. With all these bigger guests come very valuable lessons. It's annoying when it doesn't go how we would like it to, but lessons must be learnt and I guess we just keep moving forward.”

Next Episode is live on Sunday with Danny Goler, we spoke about God and religion. It was insane!

Also, you might like the full episode. 😊 

Have a lovely week